We arrived at the Denton Airport Friday afternoon. Sue’s mom and dad
were waiting to pick us up. During the flight, Sue and I had discussed
the acceptance of Lin into her family. She said not to worry, she had
talked to everyone in the past and everyone was looking forward to seeing
her. Sue had a way with people and especially our families. If
she accepted something, everyone respected her opinions and accepted.
I knew this because I valued everything she said.
Mom and dad came out to the plane to greet us. I knew they were anxious
to help with the kids and to get a first look at Lin. Sue got out and hugged
her parents and I followed.
“Hi mom, Hi dad! I said, as I hugged her and shook his hand.
“Hi son, how was your flight?” Dad asked.
“Great! We couldn’t ask for better weather. How have you been?”
I replied returning to the door of the plane to get the kids. I got
Jay out and handed him to mom then picked Lin up and held her.
“Let me see her.” Dad said reaching his arms out. I handed her to him.
“She’s beautiful!” mom said looking at her.
“She is isn’t she?” Sue replied. Dad didn’t say anything but
the way he held her, I knew he would accept her. We loaded the luggage
and drove to the house. As usual, the kids were waiting on the porch.
Mickey ran to me and jumped into my arms.
“Boy you must weigh two hundred pounds and have grown four feet since I last saw you! He just smiled and hugged me.
“I missed you!” He stated.
“I missed you too Mickey,” I said, putting him down as he ran to Sue and
hugged her. By this time, everyone was around greeting us. JJ
and Taylor weren’t home this weekend. We all went inside and sat at
the dining room table. Sammy, Josh, Lisa and Joni had Lin in the den
fussing over her along with Ray. Doug and Mickey were at the table
with us. Genie was at work and would be home in an hour or so.
We sat around and talked for a while. Dad seemed to be enjoying his
last few months in the army before retiring.
After a while, I went onto the front porch to smoke. Ray and Doug followed me.
“How have you guys been doing?” I asked.
“Fine! I’m working on post with a civilian contractor as a Plumber.” Ray answered.
“I’m still behind a desk working for Mutual Finance.” Doug responded.
“Has anything changed on post?” I asked Ray.
“Nothings changed, but I heard they are not shipping as many men to Vietnam
now. I think the war is about to wind down. Dad says we are losing
over there.”
“We’re not losing, they just don’t want to win outright. If they would
go all out, we could win easily. The politicians are afraid to do that
and I can’t understand why,” I explained.
“Money!” Doug stated.
“Yeah, that’s it in a nut shell,” I said, agreeing.
“Jay, what happened to Lin’s mother?” Ray asked.
“I’m not sure. They told me she died in a bombing or a mortar attack. I don’t know any more than that.”
“I bet you were shocked to find out about Lin, weren’t you.” Doug stated and laughed as he pushed me on the shoulder.
“More than I was with Jay,” I said, smiling back as we began laughing together. “You guys are not angels either.”
“We are next to you!” Doug said laughing as Ray joined him.
“Ha! Ha! Very funny” I said, pushing him on the shoulder.
“We’re joking with you Jay! Don’t take us serious.” Doug said continuing to smile.
“You guys hurt my feelings.”
“Bullshit! We know you better than that!” Ray stated. I smiled at him.
“Uh Oh! Here comes the devil!” Doug said as Genie pulled in the
driveway. We laughed together as she got out of the car and walked
toward us.
“What are you guys up too?” She said as she approached.
“Hi Genie!” I said, standing up and hugging her.
“Hi Jay! Is Sue inside?”
“Yes, everyone is inside,” I said, as she continued walking in the house. She looked good but I wasn’t going to tell her.
We stayed on the porch and joked for a while until Sue yelled for me to come
in. She was on the phone with Bess discussing going out tonight.
“Bess and Jen want to know if we want to go out tonight.”
“That’s fine with me. Where do they want to go?” I asked.
“They want to go to the Straight Jacket.”
“That’s a good drive isn’t it?”
“You have been there?” She asked.
“Yeah, a couple of times.”
“Well, do you want to go there?”
“That’s fine with me,” I answered thinking it didn’t matter. She told
them we would as they continued talking. I walked into the den where
Genie was holding Lin.
“Jay, she’s beautiful. But of course all of your kids are probably
beautiful,” she said not looking up at me. For a second I was angered
but I held my composure. I leaned over to her ear and whispered.
“Kiss my ass!” She wasn’t shocked by what I had said. Looking
up at me, she wagged her finger indicating she wanted to say something.
I leaned over to listen. “Kiss Mine!” She said returning my smile.
“She’s beautiful. Isn’t she? I was going to ask you if you wanted
to go to the Straight Jacket with us tonight but I don’t think I want to
be around you tonight,” I smiled again and walked back onto the porch.
I was alone until Sue came and joined me. She sat next to me wrapping her arms around mine and leaning her head on me.
“What do you want pretty girl?” I asked thinking she had something
on her mind. I put my face in her hair. “You smell good.”
“It has been a while since you have done that,” she responded.
“If you showered more often!” I said, jokingly.
“Genie asked if she could go with us tonight,” she said waiting for me to give an answer.
“I don’t think she needs to go.”
“Is there a reason?”
“I always have a reason for what I say.” I knew Genie went to Sue thinking she could talk me into it.
“Are you going to tell me why?”
“She said something to me I didn’t like.”
“What did she say?”
“She made the statement that Lin was beautiful but all my kids were probably
beautiful. I told her to kiss my ass. I was going to invite her
but changed my mind. I wasn’t really going to but I used that to get
back at her,” I said, explaining.
“You know how she is sometimes. Don’t pay her any attention.
I’ve been getting along with her lately. I want her to come so we can
spend time together.”
“Go out and have a good time then,” I said.
She sat quietly a few minutes then got up and walked back into the house.
I didn’t really care if Genie went but I wanted to make a point. I
knew she would apologize to me if she wanted to go and that was my objective,
to make her beg. She would at least have to sound as though she was
begging. Everyone let her get away with these things but I was determined
not to. I waited on the porch because I new she would eventually come
out to apologize.
Mickey came out and sat with me wanting to throw the football. We walked into the yard and began throwing.
“Are you going to play school ball when you get older,” I asked.
“If mom and dad will let me!”
“I’m sure they will if you want to. You need to practice a lot so you will be good at it.”
“I do practice all the time.”
We threw a few more times and Genie walked out onto the porch and sat watching
us. She didn’t say anything but I knew she was waiting for me to come
over so she could talk. I ignored her until she spoke up.
“Mickey! Throw it here! She said. Mickey threw it to her
and she almost caught it but it bounced off her hand. She walked a
few steps and picked it up. She tried throwing it to me but it fell
a few feet short.
“You need to practice with Genie!” I said, to Mickey. Genie walked over and stood next to me.
“That’s enough right now Mickey! I need to talk to Jay!” She said looking at him.
“Keep throwing Mickey!” I said to keep control of the situation.
“Please Jay. I want to talk,” she said with a submissive voice.
“Okay Mickey. We’ll throw later. He stopped almost ready to throw.
“Promise!”
“If we have time, okay,” I said, knowing we probably wouldn’t. He walked away throwing the ball up to himself.
“Are you still mad at me?” She asked.
“No.”
“You act as though you are. You told me to kiss your ass. That
sounds mad to me,” she said. I acted as though I wasn’t thinking about
it but I was thinking about her. She had changed clothes and was wearing
very short, shorts; with it looked like one of her brother’s shirts.
She tied it at the bottom just under her breast with the top three buttons
undone revealing part of her. She had a very sexy look about her but
I wasn’t going to let her know I thought that.
“If you came out here just to ask if you could go with us. I don’t think I want to be around you tonight,” I stated.
“I’m sorry for what I said. It was thoughtless of me.”
“Genie, I’m not like your family or friends. You know I have a very
good sense of humor. If you had said that to be funny, I would have
laughed. However, you said it to be an ass. I’m not mad; I just
am not going to put up with your spoiled rotten ass. If you came out
to apologize just so you can go tonight but continue to be an ass tomorrow
it won’t work,” I said, as I began walking slowly down the sidewalk.
She stood still thinking I would stop but I continued.
“Wait a minute!” She said jogging to catch up. I felt at this
time I had control of her. She was being very apologetic. “Jay,
I’m really sorry. Not just for tonight but I want us to be good friends.
I don’t know why I say some of the things I do,” she explained.
“I do!” I said.
“Then tell me.”
“First of all you have gotten away with these things all your life and no
one ever stood up to you. Your family is that way because they are
your family and they have to.”
“Go on!”
“Your friends let you get away with it because they accept that it is the
way you are and they just want to be friends. Although they wish you
wouldn’t be that way. Guys are a different story.”
“What is so different about them?” She asked as she put her arm around mine as we continued walking.
“With guys it is different because they don’t look at you the same way as
everyone else. First, you know you can twist men around your little
finger by your sheer beauty. You are very intelligent which is also
intimidating to them. But I’m walking here with you, your arm around
mine, letting you think that by doing that you’re going to make me melt as
the others do. But I’m letting you do it because I want you to think
that.”
“Are you reading my mind?” She asked.
“No I’m reading your heart. Which is much easier.” She continued holding my arm.
“There is another reason for me holding your arm,” she said looking into my eyes.
“I know!” I responded.
“What is it smarty? If you know, tell me.”
“You know I know what it is. I don’t have to say it. But even
if you don’t understand all the reasons, I do,” I said, enticing her to ask.
I thought about the letter that I had read when Sue wrote she would do anything
to take me away from her.
“Tell me!”
“No, you tell me. If you have something in your heart, you want to
say. Be honest with yourself and say it. I promise I won’t embarrass
you.”
“Okay then, I want to be with you. I care about you. I have every
since you came back from Vietnam,” she said turning loose of my arm.
“Do you want to know the other half?” I asked.
“Yes!” She answered.
“You want to be with me because Sue has me. I’ll always love Sue more
than anything. I’ll tell you what is in my heart. I want to be
with you too but I could never love you as I do her. We could only
be something in passing. Do you understand what I’m saying?”
I asked.
“Yes, but I still want to be with you,” she said putting her hand to my cheek.
We had walked far enough from the house that being seen didn’t worry me.
“We understand that this could never lead into something serious, don’t we,” I said, so that she would know exactly how I felt.
“Yes, I know,” she answered.
I turned us around and began walking back toward the house. We didn’t
say anything for a ways. I knew she was thinking the same as I.
Debating whether we should attempt anything. We knew if caught, that
would be the end of me, and they as sisters. I was in another one of
my moods that caused me to take chances, not caring now what the consequences
could be. We reached the driveway and turned in.
“When everyone is asleep tonight, will you come to me? I’ll leave my door unlocked,” she asked.
“I want to but I’ll have to wait and see what the situation is at that time,”
I said, with uncertainty. “By the way, you look very sexy.”
“I wore these to seduce you,” she said cocking her eyes at me.
“I thought that much!”
“It worked didn’t it. She said with a grin.
“Not yet!
“You still can’t go with us tonight!”
“Why?” She asked jerking her head toward me.
“Just Kidding!” I said, smiling. We went into the house and acted
normal. I asked where Sue was and Lisa said she was in her room.
I went upstairs and knocked on the door.
“Who is it?”
“Jay!” I answered. Unlocking the door, she was wearing only her
panties and was holding a blouse covering her breast. She turned to
walk to the bathroom as I took her arm and stopped her. She turned
facing me. I took the blouse from her and dropped it on the floor.
I looked over her body as she stood still and let me. I knelt down
on my knees and slid her panties down her legs. I realized that the
last couple of months I had taken her for granted. Suddenly I noticed
again, how beautiful her body is. I put my mouth to her stomach and
began kissing her. Kneeling down with me on our knees we kissed.
She unbuttoned my shirt and helped me removed it. Then she began unbuckling
my belt and undoing my pants. After they were loose, I pulled them
down and stood up to remove them all the way. She was fondling me.
I knelt down with her on the carpet and we were face to face.
“I love looking at you,” I said, sliding my hands over her body onto her breast.
They felt so firm. I thought. I continued to feel of her body
as she looked into my eyes. I put my palms to her face and pulled her
to mine kissing her and laying her back until we were lying on the carpet.
I put my mouth on her breast and began sucking and licking them. Moving
my tongue down her body, I put my mouth between her legs and began licking
her. She spread her legs allowing me in. For several minutes,
I remained in that position until I moved my tongue down licking her thighs
down to her feet. I put her toes in my mouth and began sucking them
and licking around her feet. Moving from one foot to another, I began
moving up her body until I had my mouth on her breast sucking and moving
my tongue around them. I rolled her onto her stomach and began caressing
her with my hands until I had felt all of her. She had a beautiful
body and all of her curves were perfect.
I moved my hand inside her thighs caressing her at the same time sliding
my tongue around her lower back and onto the cheeks of her butt. I
began biting her lightly on the cheeks until she spread her legs allowing
my fingers easy entry. Positioning her arms underneath her body, she
raised her butt up suggesting to me. I positioned myself behind her
and put myself into her. I began pushing hard as she grunted with every
push. As I came in her, I grabbed her waist and rolled on my side holding
her until I was empty and exhausted. She turned her body facing me
as we wrapped our arms around one another in silence. We lay a few
minutes knowing we needed to get dressed.
“I’ve missed that lately! She stated looking at me with a beautiful and innocent look to her face.
“I had almost forgotten how good it is with you. Making love to you
is the most wonderful thing in the world. Not just the sex but loving
you and you loving me,” I said, not wanting to get up
.
I tried not to think about tonight, going to Genie’s room while I was lying
with Sue. Why did I even consider doing it? I love Sue so much
and she doesn’t deserve it. Is there something wrong with me?
I could end up throwing everything away over a sexual fantasy. I think
it is the idea of having sex with beautiful women.
“We need to get dressed. It is almost seven. Bess and Jennifer
should be here soon,” she said patting my shoulder. I got up and went
across the hall to take a shower as she followed me. We washed each
other for fun, enjoying the time together.
After showering, Sue dried her hair and went back to the bedroom as I shaved.
While I was still in the bathroom, I heard Jen and Bess knock on the bedroom
door and enter. A few minutes later when I had finished, putting my
pants on, I went to the bedroom to finish dressing. When I entered,
we greeted each other with a hug and kiss on the cheek.
“Are you two beautiful ladies still on the market?” I asked being funny.
“Depends on who is shopping!” Jen said looking at Bess as they laughed together.
“Sue, when we go out tonight I’m going to find these old biddies each a man to marry,” I said, smiling at them.
“Did you decide about Genie? Is she going?” Sue asked.
“She apologized so I told her she could go.”
“You got Genie to apologize. For what?” Bess asked.
“She told him that Lin was beautiful and probably all of his other kids were
beautiful. Suggesting he had more than Jay and Lin,” Sue explained.
“Damn! That girl has nerve. What I want to know is how you got
her to apologize. I have never heard her do that before.” Jen
stated.
“It was easy. I told her that if she ever said anything like that again
I would sneak up behind her and slit her throat,” I said, acting serious.
They looked at me with shock.
“Just kidding!” I said, as we all burst out laughing. I sat on
the edge of the bed putting my socks and shoes on, smiling at them.
“I’m ready to go are you,” Sue stated.
I’ll be down in a few minutes,” I replied, not having a shirt on. I
opened my suitcase looking for a t-shirt and noticed the letters I had packed.
I pulled one out to read.
February 18, 1970, 3:15 am.
My Love,
I fell asleep just after supper because I have not been sleeping well.
Our son was dancing inside of me a little while ago and awoke me. Since
I was up, I wanted to write and tell you how much Little Jay and I love and
miss you. I’m sorry I waited until last month to tell you about Jay.
Maybe if I had said something before you left it would have made a difference
in the way you thought. I may never know. Sometimes I think we
may never see you again and that is almost too much to bear.
Am I wrong for not telling you about Jay? Will I hate myself forever
if something were to happen to you, knowing I kept it from you? Would
it have made a difference? Will life be cruel to me because of that?
The guilt I feel now is overwhelming but I didn’t want to alter your convictions,
“I love you that much”.
Even though I carry the hope of seeing you again, I understand reality only
too well. I know the possibility exist that you may not come back.
Even so, you’re the dearest thing to my heart and I need you here with me.
Please come home to me. Jay will need you to teach him about life.
He will need you to love and care for him with me by your side. I need
you because I feel so lonely without you. I need you to put your face
in my hair and tell me how wonderful I smell. I need you to tell me
that you love me in that soft special way that you do. I want you to
touch me in a way that only you can.
I feel better now that I have said these things to you. I have only
two more months of carrying a part of you inside me. You are closer
to me than you realize.
I know I can fall asleep again now. Kiss me in your dreams.
Your faithful love, Sue
We got in the car and drove to the Straight Jacket, which took us thirty-five
minutes. While driving I thought about Joanna, the girl I had met while
stationed here. I wonder what David and James are doing now.
Did David marry Lynn or James marry Joanna? I know they were hooked
on them. I laughed thinking about how much fun I had with them, David
and James that is. It was a crazy time for me.
Pulling in the parking lot, we could hear the loud music.
“There is suppose to be a live band tonight. Some group called the Royals.” Bess said.
“That means there will be seven dollar cover charge.” Jen replied.
“I would rather see a live band.” Genie stated. As we entered,
the music sounded better. Through the night, the band played a variety
of songs with many of my favorites. The band was good too. We
got a table near the center with three chairs. Bess, Sue and Genie
sat as Jen and I waited for chairs at the bar. We wasted no time in
having fun.
“Jen, do you want to dance?” I asked.
“Sure.”
We danced a couple of songs until Bess waved to us pointing that there were
chairs for us so we went and sat with them. We were almost yelling
to each other to hear what the other was saying because it was so loud.
The first slow song that we heard, I asked Sue to dance. I loved slow
dancing with her. There was something so romantic about slow dancing
with her it was irresistible to me. While we danced, it seemed as though
I was falling in love with her for the first time.
“I love you so much,” I whispered, to her ear.
“I love you too. I wish we could dance like this all night long.”
After that song and part of the next, we continued in each other’s arms.
Finally, as we sat down, Jen said,“ I don’t know if you two knew it but that last song wasn’t a slow one.”
Sue and I looked at each other and smiled. Genie and Bess were dancing
with other guys. Jen got up and danced to two more songs. As
I looked over, Sue was dancing with someone I didn’t know. I immediately
became angry. I never minded if she danced with someone I knew but
I had told her I didn’t like her dancing with a stranger. After the
song, Jen went back to the table, and I went to the bar and sat, drinking
a beer. I was pissed at Sue, and I suppose I was sulking but it didn’t
matter. I could feel myself going into a mood.
The person I was sitting next to began talking. I was glad to have
someone to talk to and get my mind off Sue for the moment. We discovered
that we were in Vietnam at the same time but in different places. I
didn’t look back at the table where they were sitting, out of spite.
She would probably be looking at me wondering why I wasn’t sitting with them.
I wanted her to realize that I was pissed without telling her. Sam,
the guy I was sitting next to and I had talked through several songs discussing
our tours in Vietnam. We laughed at many of the things that happened
to us during that time.
Genie interrupted. “Do you want to dance?” She asked, putting
her hand on my knee as I sat on the barstool. Sam looked at her, then
at me as I hesitated answering. I could see the expression on his face.
He couldn’t understand why I didn’t say, ‘yes,’ immediately. As always
Genie looked beautiful, wearing a loose white silky blouse opened at the
top revealing half her breasts, with black pants that were very tight.
Her long blond hair was flowing down the sides of her face over her shoulders
making her picture perfect.
“Sure! I said, stepping down from the stool. “Genie, this is
Sam. Sam this is Genie,” I said, introducing them. They said
hi and we went to the dance floor. We danced to fast songs as I waited
for a slow one. When they began playing a slow one, we got close, she
put both arms over my shoulder, and I put mine around her waist. I
could feel it coming. I was in that mood again not caring about what
Sue or anyone was thinking. She put her cheek to mine, as I could smell
her hair and perfume.
“You smell good.”
“Thank you. Are you coming to my room tonight?” She asked, whispering in my ear, teasingly.
“Yes, unless Sue remains awake all night,” I replied.
“Your angry with her aren’t you. She told me you were. One of
her old classmates asked her to dance and she thought you wouldn’t mind.
She wants to explain to you but she’s afraid to say anything right now because
you’re angry. She says that you say things sometimes when you’re angry,”
she explained.
“You mean like Fuck Her! I blurted out.
“Yes, or something like that.”
“If we are going to talk of her then I need to go back to the bar,” I said, angrily.
“Okay, Let’s change the subject,” she responded.
“You look beautiful tonight. I want to kiss you,” I said.
“We can do a lot of kissing tonight,” she said.
“Are you trying to arouse me?” I asked.
“Maybe,” she said as the song ended.
“I’m going back to the bar. Do you want to join me? Sam might ask you to dance,” I stated.
“I better check him out first,” she replied. We walked to the bar as
I helped her onto the stool. I told Sam she was my sister in Law.
I stood between the two of them listening to Sam try to make conversation
with her. I knew he was about to ask her to dance so I said; I needed
to go to the restroom.
I turned to look as I entered the restroom and they were walking to the dance
floor. I hoped that would make things look less conspicuous between
Genie and I. As I came out of the restroom Sue was waiting for me.
“I’m sorry Jay. I thought about it after it happened but I hoped you
wouldn’t be angry. He was an old friend of David’s and mine from high
school I hadn’t seen in a long time,” she explained.
“You knew how I felt. You could have at least introduced us then it
would have been Okay with me. Sue, I don’t want to talk to you right
this moment. We better drop it for now,” I said. I might say
something ugly while I was in this mood. I went back to the bar.
Sam and Genie were still dancing.
While drinking, I compared Genie to Cathy, the girl I had known when I was
first stationed here, and in certain ways, hoping Genie wasn’t as bold as
Cathy was. I new it was best to give Genie a little latitude to go
and come as she pleased. I would even encourage it so she wouldn’t
think I was trying to dominate her.
“Is anyone sitting here?”
“No, your welcome to sit,” I said, looking at a beautiful brown-haired woman.
“I’m Carlie.”
“I’m Jay! How are you tonight?” I asked.
“Great. I noticed from over there and it looks as though you’re having a nice time.”
“I usually do when I go out,” I replied.
“I came with my girlfriend tonight. She told me the band was good and I think they are.”
“Me too! Better than I expected.”
“Are you with anyone in particular tonight?” She asked.
“Well, yes and no. My wife and her friends but I’m angry with her at this moment.”
“Should I leave you alone?”
“No! I need a little company right now, although she may get a little
jealous of me talking to you. Do you mind if she gets jealous?”
“It doesn’t bother me if it doesn’t you. Which one is your wife? I saw you dancing with three different ones.”
“The second.”
“Oh, she’s very beautiful. Aren’t you afraid to leave her alone with all these guys around here?”
“At this moment it doesn’t matter to me.”
“To change the subject, why are you not with a man tonight? Is your
husband or boyfriend not careless to let you out alone?” I asked, smiling.
“My husband and I split up three weeks ago. He went back to Florida, where he’s from.”
“Looking at you I think he’s very stupid! I can tell it wasn’t your fault.”
“What do you mean?” She asked, with a puzzled look on her face.
“Just talking to you this short time, I know it wasn’t your fault!” I said.
“We met and married while he was stationed here. After he got out things
were good until he started getting letters from his old girlfriend.
He then just up and left one morning saying he was leaving me and moving
back to Florida.”
“See, I knew it wasn’t you,” I said.
“That’s amazing! How did you know, really?”
“I just knew,” I said.
“I’m looking at you too and wondering whose fault is it with you and your wife?” She asked.
“Probably mine. But that is why I’m sitting with you so I don’t have to think about it.”
“Sorry! Do you want to dance?” She asked, changing the subject.
“Will you give me a minute to think about it? I’m very vulnerable right
now,” I said, smiling. “I want to but I don’t know if I should with
her sitting over there,” I explained.
“Do you want to go dancing another night?”
“I would if we were with one another. However, I’m only here for the weekend. I’m going back to Memphis Sunday.”
“Are you leaving your wife too?”
“No, we are visiting her family.”
“Gee! Too bad!” She said.
“You have my sense of humor. I think I’m going to take you home with me tonight,” I said, as we burst out laughing.
“327-8376, or remember the word, Eastern. If you’re around tomorrow or come into town soon, give me a call.”
“I fly all over, I might be coming this way sooner than you think.”
“Oh yeah, what do you do for a living?”
“I’m a pilot.”
“Really! Will you take me up sometime?” She asked, being impressed.
“I would love to, Eastern!” I said, joking.
“Don’t forget it either!”
“I won’t.”
“I guess I’ll leave you to sulk. I’m going back to my table so I can feel rejected,” she said smiling.
“Carlie! If I get a chance tomorrow I’ll call you,” I said, in a way to convince her I would try.
“Then I’ll talk to you tomorrow. I enjoyed chatting with you.”
“Bye!” I said, as she walked off.
I looked around for Genie and Sam. They were sitting at the table with
the others. I didn’t see Sue. I looked around and didn’t see
her so I assumed she was in the restroom. I sat at the bar watching
the restroom door. I glanced around and saw Carlie looking at me with
her friend. I knew Carlie was telling her about our discussion.
Probably that I told her I would call tomorrow also. We smiled at each
other and I turned to look for Sue again. I saw her coming out of the
restroom and as she got near the table she looked at me and I motioned her
to come over to where I was. She walked over and I held the stool for
her to sit in.
I knew she wouldn’t mention about her dancing until I was ready to talk about it.
“Do you want something to drink?” I asked.
“I would like a margarita please,” I ordered her one, as we sat not saying anything.
“Why do the girls always come to you?” She asked, being puzzled or
wanting to start the conversation just so we would talk.
“As opposed to who?” I asked.
“You and I can sit somewhere and girls you don’t even know will come up to you and talk but the guys won’t with me.”
“That is the price you pay for being so beautiful. Girls look at me
and say there is a man I can walk all over. Guys look at you and say
I couldn’t have her if I wanted, she’s too beautiful,” I explained.
“No it isn’t!”
“Sure it is. My first glance at you I thought you were untouchable.
Your beauty is so intimidating to men. I’m glad too. I would
hate to spend the rest of my life kicking ass over you!” I said, jokingly.
“Who is that girl that you were talking to that keeps looking over here at
you?” She asked throwing her eyes in Carlie’s direction.
“Oh! That was an old high school friend that I haven’t seen in a long
time,” I said, with a serious face as I took a sip of my beer.
“Jay, I’m sorry!”
“Don’t worry about it. I may have been over reacting. You didn’t
do anything wrong. I’m just stupid crazy over you. Let’s dance.
They are playing another one of our songs,” I helped her from the stool as
we went to the dance floor. We held each other closely. We were
standing almost eye-to-eye. She held her lips to my neck throughout
the song. After that song, I went to one of the band members and asked
if they could play a song. When they began singing it, we wrapped ourselves
together again. As we danced, I glanced at Carlie as she looked at
me and I winked. She returned by doing the same thing and smiled.
We went to the table after the song and sat with the others.
“I see you two made up!” Jen said.
“How could I stay mad at her?” I replied.
“Sam! How does it feel sitting at the table with all of this beauty?
Very intimidating isn’t it?” I asked looking around at the girls at
the table. “These are probably the four most beautiful women in the
world,” I said, throwing my hands open. “Why are you shaking your head
Jennifer?” I asked.
“Jay! You are so full of shit! She said as everyone burst out
laughing. After we had a good laugh, I looked at Jen sitting next to
me. I put my hand to her cheek lightly holding it and said.
“I’m not joking, I have said before you’re one of the most beautiful women
in the world,” I leaned over and kissed her on the cheek. “And I’m
sitting here with you,” I continued.
“You are still full of shit!” She said as we all laughed again.
Without saying anything, she got up and left going to the restroom.
Her leaving puzzled me but then I had that feeling.
“Come on! Let’s get another drink at the bar!” Sue said to me.
We got up and walked to the bar. I could feel that she had something
to say to me.
“What is it?” I asked.
“You shouldn’t tease Jen that way.”
“Are you saying what I thing you’re saying?”
“Yes, I think you have known all along she has a crush on you.”
“Would it be alright if I went and talked to her. I know I could set it straight,” I asked for her permission.
“I think you should,” she stated.
“I suppose I’ve always known she felt something but I never took it serious
because of you. Take our drinks back to the table. I’m going
to talk to her,” I said, handing her my drink. I went to the restroom
and waited for her.
As she came out, I asked her if she was okay. She shook her head indicating
she was. I put my arms around her and hugged her. She wrapped
her arms around me and began crying.
“Come with me I want to talk to you,” I said, walking us out the door telling
the bouncer, we would be back in a few minutes. He nodded to me okay.
I put my arm around her as we walked to the car. She leaned on it as
I stood in front of her with my hands on her neck.
“You know I was serious in there when I said, you were one of the most beautiful
women in the world. You are! If it wasn’t for Sue, I could love
you until the day I die. I do love you but I love Sue that much more,”
I said, pinching my fingers together. “Can you forgive me for loving
her a little more than you?” I said, holding her face up to look into
my eyes.
“Yes, but sometimes I make a fool of myself,” she answered.
“Only sometimes! I do it all the time!” I said, as we laughed.
“Jen, you’re very special to me. I love being around you. You
are always in good spirits and that makes me want to be around you.
If you want to call me any time and talk about anything, you can. I
know there are some things you want to talk about that you need to have a
female to talk. However, if you cannot find one I promise I’ll talk
to you. I’ll be your best friend if you will let me. You know,
sometimes I have ways of knowing things about people,” I stated.
“I know, we talk about how you know things sometimes,” she replied.
“I’ll help you anytime you need me, okay?”
“That’s one of the reasons I care about you Jay. You are so sweet and caring for other people,” she said.
“That’s not true! If it weren’t for Sue to control me, I would be the
lowest person on this earth. You know, I was hurt a few years back
and lived that way for so long I cannot get it completely out of my system.
I even hurt Sue sometimes without thinking. If you don’t believe me,
you have my permission to ask her about it. I’m a hateful person sometimes.
Tonight for example, I was so hateful to Sue because she danced with an old
friend when it was so innocent. Don’t you think I acted like a fool?”
“Yes I do. I was mad at you for doing her that way. She loves you so much!”
“See, I’m hateful sometimes,” I said, as we stood for a minute not saying anything. “Are you ready to go back in?”
“Yes.”
“Can I hug and kiss you as a dear friend?”
“Yes,” I hugged her and kissed her forehead.
“If you call me in Memphis and want to talk, Sue will understand, okay?” I said.
“I would like to talk to you about some things I’ve had on my mind,” she replied.
“You call and I’ll talk to you about anything you want to, I promise.
Only because you’re one of the most beautiful girls in the world,” I said,
smiling.
“You are still full of shit!” She said as we laughed.
“I know I’m, but you’re beautiful. And you know it in your heart!”
We walked back in and sat with Sue who was sitting by herself. The
others were dancing. I glanced at Sue looking at me and winked at her
indicating everything was all right. She smiled. I got up to
use the restroom and left them to talk. While in the restroom I thought
about everything that is happening to me tonight. I couldn’t help myself.
I don’t want to see Genie or Carlie but I cannot pass up two beautiful women
like that no matter what the cost. Carlie maybe but if I’m caught with
Genie, there are no excuses I could give. I could never face her family
again. Damn that girl! Why doesn't she just turn me down?
I hope Sue stays awake all night. The temptation is too great.
I returned to the table with Sue. Genie and Bess were at the table and I didn’t see Jen.
“Where is your partner?” I asked Genie about Sam.
“I’m sitting a few out so he’s dancing with Jen.”
“What time do you have Jay?” Sue asked.
“Ten after twelve. Your not ready to go are you?”
“I have to get up with the kids.”
“I’ll leave it up to you girls. I could dance all night if you want to,” I said.
“When Jen gets through dancing, we’ll leave! Okay Girls?” Genie stated.
“Yes, we have a long drive.” Bess replied. We waited for Jen
to come back as we finished our drinks. After coming back to the table
I told Sam, it was nice to meet him and we might see him again. He
said the same and left.
On the drive back I was curious if Sam got any phone numbers.
“Did any of you give out your Phone numbers tonight?” I asked trying to have a little fun with them.
“No.” They all said.
“Bull! Why not?” I asked. They all said no one asked.
“You girls are lying! Sam didn’t ask any of you for a number?” I asked.
“No!” they all said again.
“That shows you what kind of Dumb Asses are in this world. All the
time he spent dancing with you girls and he didn’t even ask. What an
Ass! I would have gone home with three phone numbers or at least I
would have asked,” I said, in anger.
“How many numbers are you going home with? Genie asked.
“None! What do you mean by that?”
“What was her name, the cute little brunette that was all over you Jay?” Genie asked.
“I don’t remember and she wasn’t all over me. She wanted to dance and
I told her no, I was with my wife. She said you were beautiful Sue
and I should not leave you sitting alone. She was right too,” I said.
“And you can’t remember her name after all that?” Genie asked.
“Carlie! Are you satisfied?” I blurted out to Genie in a way
to warn her. She didn’t ask me anything else on the way home.
After arriving, we said our good nights and went in. Sue went up to
check on the kids and Genie went to her room. I wondered if she would
really leave her door unlocked. She might not, just to spite me for
shutting her up. I went to the kitchen and made a sandwich. I
was standing at the counter eating when Genie walked in wearing a short silk
shirt.